Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Miscarriages are awful, dreadful, terrible, horrible… the worst.

Update: I just wanted to thank everyone who has expressed love and prayers. I generally keep my blog very positive and happy and only post the good things that are happening, because I tend to focus on those and cling to happy thoughts. Yes, my nickname has been Pollyanna--Love her! That said, I struggled with posting this, because I have a hard time sharing what is essentially grief for me. In the end I did post it so you can see another aspect of me and know that I'm not without my own trials. LOL! And boy do I have trials! This is the 6th miscarriage in 16 months that i've experienced. I'm not going to dwell on the technical reasons why this is happening or explain just what's going on, but please know that my hubby and I are already moving forward and thinking happy thoughts.
This baby will come to our family--this much I know. I have tremendous faith. If I didn't, I wouldn't be putting myself through this, but I also know that everything happens for a reason. I will be eternally grateful for the 6 super easy and healthy pregnancies I was able to experience and become even more patient as we wait for the seventh and last of our children to join our home. Meanwhile, I will continue to do what I've done the last year and WRITE, WRITE, WRITE and keep my thoughts on many other new and exciting children and characters I've had the opportunity to meet and grow with the last little while.
Thanks again. Your love means the world to me.
Jenni James

31 comments:

  1. That says it all. I've been there. So, so, so sorry. :(

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  2. I'm sorry, Jenni. I have been going through this a lot lately too. I don't know what else to say. Just wanted to send some sisterhood vibes, I guess.

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  3. I'm so sorry! My prayers are with you!

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  4. Oh, Jenni, I'm so very sorry. Hugs to you.

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  5. This is so sad. I'm so sorry. I'll keep you in my prayers.

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  6. Oh, Jenni, I'm so filled with incredible sorrow for you. My thoughts and prayers are yours.

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  7. Love you and am thinking of you!! Thank goodness for the gospel.....

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  8. I am sending you lots of long distance hugs! I'm so sorry! :(

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  9. Oh, sweetie! I'm so very sorry! I wish there was something I could say to help... Love you!

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  10. Hang in there, Jenni. In the meantime, know my thoughts and healing wishes are with you.

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  11. Sorry girl...I don't have much else to say about that because I don't really know, but I AM sorry!

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  12. oh jenni, i'm so sorry. (((hugs))) to you and yours.

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  13. Oh, Boo. Words won't do any good, but know I'm reaching across the miles with hugs and prayer power. Love you.

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  14. Yes, agreed! So sorry. Hugs and commiserations.

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  15. And because I'm old and have mush for brains, I did a stupid not-funny April Fools joke about being 50 and pregnant today. I was mortified when I remembered after posting, natch) about your sad news yesterday. And I prayed for you last night...so how can I be such a scabooble head that quick? Please forgive my apparent insensitivity and attribute it to my lack of functioning gray matter. :(

    Love/hugs/write on.

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  16. I'm sorry Jenni! Lots of love from AZ going your way!

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  17. your an inspiration and I'm glad you shared.

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  18. Oh man Jenni! I am so sorry! I don't know how hard that would be to have 6 miscarriages! You are a strong woman and i admire your faith in the Lord! You are amazing! You will be in my prayers!

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  19. I'm so sorry for you. I didn't realize you'd been going through this. Each child is a loss and know I will pray!

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  20. What a trooper you are to go through that many. Heavenly Father must have one special spirit waiting to be in your family. How awesome is it though that through all the trials comes something more amazing than we can picture at this moment in our lives. Your time is coming!!

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  21. Aw man, that is so hard, Jenni. I'm impressed with your spirit, though. It's not easy to have faith like that. So, keep it up, and I'll be thinking of you.

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  22. I only experienced one miscarriage but it was so difficult. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

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  23. Jenni...I am so sorry to hear about your miscarriage. I wish you happy thoughts and you are in my prayers.

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  24. Im sorry for your struggles. *hugs*

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  25. My heart goes out to you. I just had one too, and it was the worst. I truly admire your courage and strength.

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  26. Aw, Jenni! I'm so sorry! I was wondering where you were--that I hadn't heard anything since my vacation. I thought to look back at the posts from when I was gone. I'll keep checking back.

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