So I've been a little stressed lately due to the economy and publishers laying off workers and well all that stuff. It's especially noticeable because super awesome editors are reading my book (Pride & Popularity) now and considering it. Which just that fact alone is enough to make my head swim with giddy delight! I can't believe it! It's like a dream! --Until I allow self doubt to creep in and my dreams to be invaded by a whole bunch of nasty nightmares.
Well, I make a point to only post very happy things--so as I catalogue this crazy journey of mine--I thought I'd point out that I ran into one of my actors from the plays I direct. This one wants to be an agent when she grows up. And she's 16. The perfect age for my YA book. So I ask her if she'd mind reading P&P and see if she finds something wrong with it. Something that doesn't ring true to teenagers. She was more than happy. Down right excited to read it, which raised my hopes a bit. So I sent it. Then Saturday, she wrote me back. And this is what she wrote:
"Oh my gosh!!! i LOVED it! and i definitely LOVED Taylor!! I just finished it, and i was like, wow that ending is amazing!!! i laughed so much! Chloe is hilarious! i think that the best kind of book is one where you actually feel what the characters are going through and that's exactly how it was for this one! i seriously laughed and cried with Chloe, that's how much i loved it! It actually kind of reminded me of some of the Meg Cabot books I've read. You definitely got the dialogue down. I could definitely see everything in the book happening!! So, yeah, I thought it was absolutely awesome! you have some serious talent!!"
Anyway, needless to say, it's amazing how much compliments can uplift you! It's downright wonderful actually! LOL! I immediately started to reread my book! LOL! Yes, I'm a nerd, I know. But I've been a bit scared to reread the whole thing since the edit hacking it went through back in August. Whew! Did you know, I couldn't stop reading it! LOL! My own stupid book! The book I know the ending to, I couldn't stop! LOL! It WAS awesome! Eeeh! I finally crawled into bed at 2am sighing and sooo in love with Taylor Anderson, I couldn't help myself! LOL!
So there you go! Pride & Popularity!--Bring it on! Hahaha! And somebody PLEASE tell me you go through the vicious self doubt cycle too--because I'm gonna feel so weirded out if I'm the only one!